breakups
When it comes to breakups, pain is inevitable, but Humans thinks that suffering is optional.
Unsent Letter
To you...always you. Why is it always you, still? For a while I tried to avoid things that reminded me of you, but it never worked. You are literally everywhere, in everything, it was impossible. I had to learn to just not let everything, or anything, bring you back up the way I used to...took a little practice but, I got the hang of it. Now I’m a pro. Even when a song or a phrase or a name or a moment full of you comes unexpectedly, even when I’m not ready, even when I’m blindsided...it doesn’t knock me breathless anymore. If and when you happen to me, these days, its subtle. It’s more of a gentle tug than it is a punch in the face, and the effect barely lasts more than a beat or two before it’s gone.
By Maddi Moon6 years ago in Humans
Manipulated By My Ex
Hello, everyone. This is my first post on Vocal and I’d like to thank y’all for even taking the time to click on this story out of so many. It’s gonna be really long as I’m going to walk you through everything including my thoughts and emotions at the time, yes, I still remember most of it.
By Miss Anonikitty6 years ago in Humans
The Desire of her heart
Suffocating , I found myself using this term a lot lately to describe my feelings to the world. All the walls were closing in on me. My tears were running down like the Nile river. I couldn't even smile. I woke up everyday with my pillow soaking wet just like a puddle after a rainy day. I was drowning in my own sorrows and that's when I realized I had lost my touch. It all started of with a phone call. I picked up my phone , jumped on the bed and smiled alone. I dialed his number and put him on loudspeaker. His phone rang and my heart pounded. My nerves kicked in , he answered.....that moment I felt so confused and yes there was something I really needed to tell him. I asked him why he didn't reply my texts and he asked me which text? This showed that he didn't save my number nor took what I said to him seriously but who knew because I wasn't even aware about anything that's how deeply in love I was. I couldn't keep it in for any longer so I confessed my feelings to him. The guy kept quiet for a second. He was trying to process all the news I had delivered. He was so surprised , how someone can keep quiet for so long. Well he replied firmly, and said: 'Since you shooting your shot , I might as well get shot." I had this amazing glow on my face and hoped that it would last long. I couldn't believe that I made a move for the first time in my life but what I didn't know was that this wouldn't end well for me. He seemed so real and serious but yet so slow and distant. It all ended and I found myself suffocating deep within my thoughts. Every time I had my eyes shut , the smile on his face would just haunt me in my sleep. At that time I didn't know how to feel. I couldn't even differentiate between right and wrong. I wasn't even able to open up to those who supported me during my breakdown. It was bad , very bad. I was beyond repair. My heart was shattered into a million little pieces. I was just like a broken glass. I lost trust for everyone around me. All I wanted was to feel pain and sadness. I didn't even know what happiness was anymore. Cutting myself became a daily routing and my life felt meaningless. I had lost all reasons to live. Suicidal thoughts were all I could think off. At that time it hit me, I realized that I had a lot to look forward to, my friends and family. It all came to mind that he was never into me to begin with. His an ex I wish to forget and a nightmare I wish to wake up from. That guy never cared nor had my heart at his best interested. To him it was a feeling of lust so it hit me , I had to move on. I knew it was time to let him go even if he was going to walk away with a piece of my heart but my heart didn't want to let go at all. I had this hope that he would come back but he never did. Loving him was a lesson which I wish to share with everyone. Trust me when I say ,'Do not love with your heart but with your mind.' Your mind will never lead you astray. Following my heart was a lesson learnt. Pure love doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore.
By Zinhle Sutho6 years ago in Humans
I Had A Different Life Before...
I had a different life before. One in which I swam purposefully through the ether with the mate to my soul. We recognized our connection as source-- the light and love that others only dream of holding in the physical realm. We fancifully frolicked and literally wept for the rest of the world which couldn’t, or wouldn’t-- out of fear of work or by random exemptive turn of the wheel-- feel such deep knowing of the guiding secrets of the cosmos. We wanted to share all of us, our totality, with everyone. Friends commented on the manifestation of our relationship as tangible, that watching us say goodbye felt like the force of magnets being separated; strangers walked between us and stammered, “Whoa… what was that?” Our eyes would meet and my heart would explode with the validation of being seen, with the possibility that others could feel our love, and with the hope that this kind of love was infinite and could heal so many.
By Carolyn M Gage6 years ago in Humans
A Lonely Kind of Life
Billie stared at her keyboard blankly, tears threatening to fall from her face. Being stuck in the house with her family all day, every day has been very hard for her. She never had a good relationship with her parents even before the virus, but at least when she was able to go outside with friends, she could escape. Now, there was no escape for the distressed girl. Fights broke out in the house too often. Yelling and screaming, various objects being thrown around the house, sadness, and anxiety—this was her new world. She swears that if she got a penny for how often neighbors would come by, knocking on their door, only to complain about how they can’t go to sleep or their dog keeps barking because her parents were often way too loud for their own good, she would be out of the house, living in a gigantic estate and owning a luxurious yacht, away from her oh so stressful parents. “I wish I can leave and never come back!” her father’s voice echoed in her brain over and over again. This was something he said quite a lot. Then, he would leave the house, go on an hour of two hour drive just to get away from the family for a bit. When he would get back, he would sleep next to her mom, facing away from each other, trying very hard not to accidentally touch even the slighgest bit or talk to each other, even if if was just a small grunt of frustration. And him really abandoning them, like he said? She never knew if he meant it at all. She only knew that it hurt. “You know what happened? We fought again because of you two.” These were words that she had become accustomed to hearing. Her parents would often blow off steam after the fight by putting it all on Billie’s shoulders. It was her fault, always. She was a bad child, always. In a room with the whole family, her and her little sister would exchange words through eye contact, as their parents yelled for hours on end. This was their secret way of communicating, as their parents were never keen to listen to the two girls. It was as if her parents had forgotten that their young hearts could still feel. So, Billie always carried so much weight on her shoulders and never knew how to unload. Because of her situation, she was so often both physically and mentall tired. Taking plenty of naps through out the day, even maybe sleeping the day away, was only normal for her. What was worth waking up to anyway? Not that her mother would not come banging on her door to get out because she was “lazy”.
By Salem Rosé6 years ago in Humans
How to get over your Ex
So, they texted you last night: All is said and done...it's not you, I just need time to realise myself... They need time to realise their place in the world? Oh awesome, I thought they could do with a good spiritual trip to Nepal where they could climb Mt. Everest and realise the profundity and transient nature of life.
By Sophie Wakefield 6 years ago in Humans
