Having Grown

i have grown old

pretending what i knew was real

i have grown cold

telling myself it’s all part of the deal

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i thought i was brave

i thought i was bold

i thought i didn't have to feel

i sold my soul, not for love not for gold

and now this empty nothing is real

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i have grown tired

chasing dreams that weren’t mine

i have grown jaded

afraid that i wasted my time

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i thought i was wary

i thought i was smart

i thought i could beat this game

i sold my control when i sold my soul

so now it’s just more of the same

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i have grown saddened

by the lack of real choices ahead

i am becoming maddened

all these circles in my head

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i thought i was tough

i thought i was cool

i thought i was better than this

slowly i count all the things i can’t touch

the things that i’m gonna miss

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